Easter 2nd Sunday / 2022-04-24 –
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The speed limit was 25 miles per hour.
I was driving about 42 miles per hour. I was pulled over by the local police
for speeding.
I received a ticket for speeding.
[_00-b_] And, I was very frustrated, mad, angry that I was given a ticket …and I was not in the mood to be reminded that this was really a relatively minor thing, and that I should take responsibility for my actions, and that speeding on a street where there is school, park, children is a dangerous combination.
Worst of all, I did not want anyone to
laugh at me. I was deadly serious about my frustration with the incident. My
friend, whom I was picking up at the train station, thought the whole thing was
hilarious.
My friend grew up in NYC, lived in
Manhattan, probably did not drive that much. What did she know?
I wanted to be mad. I wanted to remain
behind the locked door of my fault and my sin. I had no sense of humor at that particular
moment. It was ironic – perhaps appropriate – that we made the entire – longer
trip – to Maine later that day – in my friend’s car. My friend did all the
driving. The journey did take my mind
off the original incident. I was glad that we were going somewhere.
It was ironic that I had to do no more
driving. I did not take wheel at all later that day.
There was a part of me that was still
stuck at the original incident, “scene of the crime” with the police officer.
Have you ever been stuck on, stuck in
a rut regarding some fault or sinfulness or culpable error on your part, stuck
in the past?
[_00-c_] If so, the experience of the first
disciples, of the Gospel today, may be present, may be manifest in you today.
It is certainly manifest in me today, when I have trouble letting go, either of
something that was done to me, or of something that I have done.
At the incident with the police
officer, I was tempted to blame for example the “way I was raised”… that was
raised to be on time. Then again, if I had been raised to be on time, then I
should have left earlier for the train station.
In any case, becoming aware of of our
own sinfulness, there is a sense in which we might easily blame someone else
other than ourselves.
Or, we may need to forgive someone
else before we – or as we – repent of our own sinfulness.
[_00-d_] In the Gospel today, the first disciples
are locked behind closed doors. They are stuck in one place.
And, it is ironic that they are
“stuck” and hiding in the very place where Jesus had celebrated the Last Supper
with them, in the room where He had said, “This is my body given up for you;
this is the cup of my blood.”
They are scared, anxious, and probably
also angry, resentful that Jesus had been arrested and treated with such
cruelty and died.
Things had been going so well up until
now.
These disciples are called to make
Jesus’ words from the Cross their own – “forgive them Father, they know not
what they do.”
For the person who has hurt you, and
for the person who has hurt or offended me, we are called to make these words
our own. Because some of the people who hurt us did not know what they were
doing.
Or, even if they did not know what
they were doing – or should have known better – they could not have known
exactly how it would play out in your life or my life.
Forgive him, Father, Forgive her,
Father, Forgive them Father, they know
not what they do.
Having just seen the movie, I also
noticed that during his faith journey and conversion, he has a similar attitude
toward police officers and priests.
He thinks – at times – that both of
them are out to get him. He is arrested twice in the movie and argues with the
police officers both times about their harassment and poor treatment of him. He
is actually doing something wrong, but acts like he is the victim.
When he goes to confession for the
first time, to confess his sins to the priest, he treats the “Father” the
“Padre” the “Priest” in a similar way. The future “Father Stuart Long” berates
the priest for being self-righteous and not recognizing the priest himself is a
sinner and is not “God”.
I could not agree more. The priest
himself – I myself and every priest – is a person in need of repentance and
God’s grace and forgiveness. The question is not whether or not I am a sinner,
but whether or not I am a repentant sinner. I also go to confession and take
advantage of this sacrament, for my own well being and journey to God.
[_00-e_] In the 27th Psalm, we pray,
the “Lord is my light and my salvation, of whom should I be a afraid?”
Of whom are you afraid of? Whom am I
afraid of?
I fear getting pulled over. I fear
being found out.
At
one point in the movie, Father Stu, the young Father Stuart visits a prison to
read the Bible and pray with the inmates. He begins his sermon to those who are locked
up to remind them that many people outside the prison may not want to talk to
them, they may feel rejected. They may have no more phone calls. They may have
used up their one phone call and the guards may be giving them a hard time. But
God has not given up on them, nor on you. Make 1 more call. Turn back to God.
What we bring to God is not just the
“bad stuff” of our sins, because God does not just want the evil to be
recycled, reduced and reused.
God has a much greener and better
environmental plan, God wants something good from us and from you, from me.
What God asks for is our repenantance, our
sorrow for our sins. The sorrow for our sins is not equal to our sins. It is
something God that exists in us to show that you can change, and be changed
that you have not yet given up, regardless of where you have been “pulled
over.”